★ BABY , IM YOURS.

its been so long since i last post !! =D
just wanna say tat I'm so stressed up.
with my project and my family.
Had some financial problem now at home.
so my dad is unable to give me allowance.
i'm struggling with school right now..
what i wan now is to find a job asap.
so that i dont need to take money from my dad
sometimes i wonder, should i give up my studies?
like what my father and grandma say??
they ask me to stop my studies and go out to find work!
but i only left a few months to graduation..
cant they just provide me my last education??
its just a few months left..
i really had enough..
can anybody tell me what to do??
i just need to find a job fast!! =D
and for project,
what thing stress me is that we need to sell party packs
we sold around 1000+ packs in order to raise our funds.
but heng we managed to sell all party packs
that makes me so relieved.
the next thing is to bring kindergarten kids to science centre.
i hope everything will go on smoothly.

today me, kexin, beelay, joanna, yuhuan,

shirlene and beewen went to SENTOSA!

actually when when we meet at 147,

it was raining.

when we reach habourfront,

its hot like hell lo.

den we put the mat den put de things

kexin and joanna went down first.

den the rest of us also went down.

after that i suggested going to the other side of the beach

den we form 1 line den walk slowly to the middle of the beach.

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SUDDENLY SOMETHING HAPPEN!

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bee and joanna drown.

but thanks to huan den joanna and bee are alright!

bee more jialat den joanna.

when i saw bee rite.

she very xinku already.

den beewen was shouting 'save beelay, save beelay'!

den huan was like trying to push bee back.

but she cant cos she too small size.

i'm so afraid tat bee wasnt able to come back.

den shirlene best ar.

she went all the way to pull bee.

but bee was struggling.

so shirlene was being pull down by bee.

so kexin faster grab shirlene and i grab kexin.

i nearly being pulled down by them.

but heng la.

i was so afraid that something will happen to bee leh.

after tat we just go up the shore and play volley ball as its going to rain.

den it started to drizzle.

so we faster went to the shower room.

we bath tgt lo.

we having fun when we bath lo. especially the drown girl, bee. haha

bath hao den we went back serangoon to eat.

after tat jiu go home le. =D

ITS A DAMN TIRING DAY.

MUST HAVE A GOOD SLEEP!

NIGHTS EVERYONE!

everybody have their own problems

whether its family, relationship or friends

i find it hard to cope wif family!

and for relationship, i just need a bf who cares for me

why some ppl have a loving family but why not me?

my grandma is in the hospital and i cant even do anything

wat is this NGYILING?

i just need a warm family when i reach home,

and they will ask me how was today?

wat i lack is the love in the family.

why didnt i follow my sister and let my aunt raise me??

my family is broken when we are young,

my mum left us when i'm young,

and my sister is just less than 1 year old.

my grandma left my sister wif my aunt as she cant cope.

so my grandma took care of me all these 20 years!

i love my grandma so much!

and wat is father to me?

my father doesnt even care for me.

doesnt even bother to look for me when i'm not at home.

if i nv cal him, and ask for pocket money.

i tink he will nv even cal me!

when i cal him, he scold me saying why i nv go home.

saying that i nv go sch!

but i did go to sch okay!

i have my presentation done and went home den went out OKAY!

i dun even feel like going home as this house feels so empty.

without me is nothing.

they wont feel anything is wrong without me.

I DUN NEED THIS HOUSE AT ALL!

when i go back, i only can use com.

nobody cares bout wat i do.

i can only smile and laugh wat ever i do.

even if i'm sad. =)

i'm going to keep my feeling deep down the bottom of my heart!

what i need is fatherly love!

i want him to care bout me.

i feel so empty in this house.

i wonder what am i going to do without my grandma!

i was thinking of him again.

i dunno why?!

did i do the wrong thing by breaking up?

why am i still missing him?

why i wish he would be my side?

why?? can anybody tell me??

whenever i think of him, i will lose my mood.

and i will cry no matter wat.

now i know i'm just faking my smile all over.

i dun wan to tell anybody.

i dun wan to dampen their feelings.

but i wanna cry out loud!

why i have such feelings?

how i wish i can forget everything!!!!!!!!!!

i still have his lovely photos in my phone and com.

i cant bear to delete it.

how i wish that he knows bout it.

but i bet he deleted all our photos.

he's so cruel!

we cant even be friends.

i wish i can forget bout him.

Labels: missing you

wow! wat a good morning!
just now ton wif alot of ppl ar,
joanna, bee, tavis, norris, botak, alvin and alot la.
haha
was drinking just now.
dunno y so fast drunk lo!!
VOMIT for dunno how many times ar.
like MERLION!!! hahaha
den hor, something happen to zheyuan.
he fell down den had a deep cut near his eye there.
OMG!! den tavis they all bring him to the hospital.
luckily only got stitch. HENG ar.
joanna. huan and all. dun worry.
joanna. i'm not faking my smile okay.
just now pei joanna, tavis and beelay go 147.
den tavis and joanna eat.
after tat jiu home sweet home liao lor!!
=D

Labels: drunk

was back to single again.

i knew this day will come.

and i knew we are not suitable for each other.

and i hate ppl to end my call

without telling me anything.

was so fed up.

u told me u busy,

okay.nvm

ask u go out

u tell me ltr u will text me.

u say 10 mins call back

but it feels like hours.

i call u at 6,

10 plus den u call back

WTF is this!!

i wasnt free nowaday

cos new year,

and u cant even understand.

wat is this??

when i ask u to meet, u cant

when u ask me to meet, i cant

u tell me u busy.

i understand.

but why cant u understand me!!!!!!!

u hang up my call several times.

just cos i tell u i'm not free.

i dunno wat time i will end.

and tmr i having reunion dinnertgt if my family.

i cant meet u earlier.

y u cant understand???

y??????

wan to go out wif u,

u tell me u no mood!

u tell me u will cal me to say u going anot.

waiting for ur cal but u nv cal.

i cant even msg u now and u tink i dun care bout u

i told u i forgot to pay my bills

u tink i'm lying to u!!

WTF!!

u wan to try using my phone now!!

being my bf, cant u trust me?

tat day we quarrel in ur hse.

u left me alone walking to the bus stop.

when i'm walking, my tears are rolling down.

and i nv blame u or wat.

u say sorry and i forgiven u!

u say u wont leave me alone again.

and we quarrel at ur block downstairs.

u did the same thing.

and u say sorry again. u wont do it again.

i forgive again.

each time i left after quarrelling wif u

my tears are rolling down my cheeks!

was so upset u know!

we keep on quarrelling.

there's no end to it.

i kept my feeling to myself!!!

it wasnt a nice feeling.

i was going crazy.

i cant hide my feelings well.

when i'm happy,

i will laugh till i drop.

but when i sad,

i will not laugh so often!

but i will hold back my tears!

not to let them worry.

i will keep my feelings to myself.

it will not dampen ur feelings.

when i'm outside u wont see it.

i was crying like nobody's business in the hse.

i knew we wont last long.

but dun worry.

you will find someone better.

i will find someone better.

okay.

you told me that

u wont want ur girlfriend to be friend

this is cruel.

why cant we still be friends?

why is it so cruel?

u will feel better but i DUN! OKAY!

UNDERSTAND?

even if we cant be couples,

we can be very good friends.

but u DONT WANT!!

WTF!!!

GET OUTTA MY LIFE!!!

I DUN WISH TO SEE U AGAIN!!

WILL NOT CONTACT U AT ALL!!

MSN I BLOCK YOU!

I DELETED UR CONTACT

I WONT TALK IN FACEBOOK!!

GET LOST MAN!!

I HATE YOU!!!!!!!

Labels: breakup